With all the excitement today I forgot to thank all you of who have helped with cooking, shopping and social time. It is really helping a lot. Not having to worry about the eating part, helps *a lot.*

Bad News

Well, so it seems very clear by now that 2 of the lesions have not responded to the Gammaknife treatment. It works in 90% of the cases, but I am among the 10%. On the more hopeful side of things the remaining treated lesions are stable and there are no new lesions, which is very good. Also, the rest of my body is cancer free, but we unfortunately need these damn brains, and brain metastases are notoriously difficult to treat.

Sometimes I get really angry, I have to admit, since this situation was completely avoidable. But that doesn’t help right now, and anger isn’t a great feeling to live with anyhow. So I might as well try to walk it off quickly.

The task for this week is find out / decide what treatment I should go on right now. I never tried Xeloda, a pill based chemo that is the standard recommendation in these cases. It doesn’t work for many people (percentages vary according to source), which is why I refused it initially. Itt does work for some though and at this point I am certainly willing to try. I think I can keep those micro-metastases in check (even without Xeloda), but once a tumor is established it becomes tough.

Otherwise, the past 10 days have been fun. On our way back from Long Beach to New York, we took a detour to look at one of the potential training places for Lucinha and I got to visit a dear friend in Santa Cruz. Other friends came down from San Francisco and once back here (in New York) we spent the week-end with friends in the Catskills. Lucinha loved it all of course.

Below a picture of me from this week-end. Lucinha wasn’t the star of the photo-op this time, but her flickr site is being updated regularly:

Other than that, I am still planning to travel to Germany next week, but might have to revise my plans for teaching this spring. I enjoyed teaching this quarter, but right now it might not be such a great idea.

The weather here is freezing, but absolutely gorgeous. I will take the four legged beasty out for a walk soon. That should help.

Much love,